Caitlin Singer's Journal

Where are they now?

2005-02-01T05:04:58Z

i think it's clear that my life wants me to die.

"how come i'd never hear you say "i just wanna be with you"?"

2005-01-31T05:36:11Z

lalala...im in an oddly good mood...and i know exactly why also...but im not gonna say!!!!!! its a secret!!! ::hides in corner:: muahahaha!!!!!heart hop's on saturday! holy hell, i cant fuckin wait!!!!!!! ::nudges chase:: but damn...cant i just like jump into friday night? i dont wanna go to school this week!!!! its gonna be so fuckin' long!!!!!! ::sigh::

well, im goin' to sleep...and by that i mean that im going to go do my homework...night all

this is bullshit.

2005-01-31T01:30:07Z

What the fuck happened to responsible parenting? i mean fuckin seriously. i thought that like my parents' generation(s) were like, good parents...well...not accusing my own parents...but i mean i know some people, who's parents (fathers pretty much)yell the living snot out of them, and beat them until they're fucking screaming to stop! what the fucking hell. this is all such bullshit.

anyway...my day's been extremely uneventful...went to the mall, made plans earlier, but they keep getting pushed back...so i have no idea if they're gonna happen...

tomorrow's monday...:( i dont wanna go to school....
saturday's heart hop...this is gonna be a fucking fun dance. ;)

anyway...im gonna go write or something...ill write later on...

You are not your fucking khakis

2005-01-30T05:02:23Z

yeah thats right, i sed it...
hmm...today was interesting. i hate uneventful days. but...it seems my days are never uneventful. today i got up, wya too damn early if u ask me, and went to woodfield with my mom. picked some things up, then home i went. stay home for like...a million hours, then i coaxed chase into coming over.

we went to melissa's and blah blah blah...we were gonna watch spirited away, but once chase quoted Fight Club...how did that happen!?...he wanted to watch fight club...and i think we all know that once chase wants to do something, you do also.

so we watched that. Melissa, Chase and I...all squished on melissa's bed. and for all of those who have seen that bed...you all know how hard that is...but we did it! and there was sex everywhere! ahhhh!
no...not really. *snaps fingers* but megan....i think she may be staying out of melissa's bed for awhile. god knows why she would be in there anyway, but just for those odd little times.

*sigh* who's goin to heart hop!? *raises hand*

"its wonderful....reality..."

2005-01-29T05:35:02Z

wow...today was cool..i guess.....
1. didnt have to go to school
2. went to aunt's funeral
3. went out to lunch
4. went to mel's
5. went to glenside...?
6. back to mel's
7. got kidnapped by chase
8. went back to my house
9. pizza
10.watched hellsing....the anime...not van helsing...
now im here! amazing! wow! im hyper! my ribs hurt! im going shopping tomorrow!!! *hugs self* i love shopping...!

Melissa and i need to take typing class...

2005-01-26T04:01:57Z

hope is dead 6: ooh!
hope is dead 6: and i got SOCKS!
hope is dead 6: *does "score" dance*
Reader202: lol
Reader202: i think you and me are the only ones that get excited over socks
hope is dead 6: hehe
Reader202: us (at the mall): OMG! LOOK! WHITE COCKS! WHO'D A THUNK IT?!
Reader202: ...
Reader202: SOCKS**
Reader202: SOCKS********
Reader202: NOT WHITE COCKS
Reader202: people shouldnt be flashing their cocks around the mall, even if they are white..
hope is dead 6: LMAO!

ahh, good times...ill wirte again in a little while...regarding my day and such

"Get out of my face and watch me die"

2005-01-25T03:44:52Z

wow...i really thought this was gonna be a good week...*hits self for being naive* friends are in fight...im slightly lonely...and my Aunt died today. ands its only fuckin' Monday...JOY

oooooowwwwwiiiiiieeeeee

2005-01-20T03:09:19Z

oh holy christ. i was at mel's today...and i was drinking milk...and then andy made me laugh...unintentionally, and i got so much milk up (and out) my nose...oh god, it hurts to fucking bad. i have the worst headache...and my sinus-s are like...attacking me!!! ahh! but the past 2 days that ive gone to chase's...ive ended up falling asleep. how quaint...did i spell that right? oh well...i dont really care right now. im surprised that i can spell at all. ahh, im gonna go die...my head hurts too much.

"i mean seriously...where do the other 5 inches go?"

2005-01-14T18:13:28Z

wow...finals blow. but hell! they're over! and i think i failed my history one...o well...andy is here...reading over my shoulder...he says "hi"...and jeremy...anyway...we're going to best buy...cuz for some reason we all have money...and so we're gonna go use it...oh, and get chase. i have no idea why i botherd writing this...haha...im getting my naval pierced this weekend! yyyyaaaayyyy!!! ill write later...

"dude....my whole family wants to bang you"

2005-01-12T05:44:42Z

god DAMN am i tired as FUCK....!!! hmm...algebra final today...then ceramics...but we didnt have a test, so i just sat around for an hour and 1/2...then i went with andy to chase and mel's house's and alas...neither of them were home...then me and andy got lunch, went back to find chase, andy left...me and chase are alone...heh...no. we watched ed edd and eddy...*nods*. i went to my house, showered...then grandparents invaded my living quarters...then andy and i went to mel's, and chatted for awhile...then chase came back with me to my house...ate cold pizza...watched some good ol' tv..*coughs*...and now im here! yay! my night was good. hehehehe

Incoming call ; Eric Cell

2005-01-06T06:17:08Z

wow....why did eric call me? he was talking about something that had to do with chase...trying to see if he knew him or not...god i hope he doesnt...no offence eric...but...that would be kinda strange...yeah, well this week has been the best week of my life. *smiles* i hope we get a snow day today...*looks outside* damn...o well, im tired. night

"owww, you bit me!!"

2005-01-01T00:55:39Z

so...last night, i went to a party of some sort. it was supposed to be a murder mystery party...but we ddint do it...we ended up watching manson dvd's, and playing twister, and then we went to the park, played t.o.d. then we went back to the house, and then we played t.o.d. some more, then spin the bottle...lol, we're so lame. and then at like 3 a.m. we went to denny's and saw these like 6 "wigger" guys (if you come evn call them that) and this one has bling like the size of my dog...but then we went back to megan's house, and had a fucking awsome time, and we neevr exactly went to sleep...i was on the couch with this fucking HOT guy, and he was my amusement for the night/morning. *pats self on back* mmmmmmmm.....anyway.....*looks around* alex is here, shes always here...shes reading this, and my dog is trying to put a circular object into her crotch. i got a new signature on my pants! yyyaaaayyyyy! its so damn noticeable...but o well...anyway, im gonna go to this party, and its gonna kick some major fucking ass...makes all your parties SUCK!...night! happy new thing

...and i swear to god, ill tear you apart...

2004-12-26T01:46:33Z

wow...everyone got an ipod for xmas...thats special...i did too...thats why im not pitching a lot about it. but it was a gift to myself. i paid for it...so its DIFFERENT! HAH! *is done* anyway...so my x-mas was ok. met this guy...hes so awesome (meaning hot). saw blade trinity. kick ass movie. pinted me some tabs...i think im gonna go play my bass (it is my love) my next week is gonna kick so much ass...it isnt even FUNNY. hah! damn. anyway...im going to go do something remotley useful...or attempt to...

orange

2004-12-23T23:30:37Z

im going to a movie. im not wearing any makeup. im just the good friend who's only there to give advice...yay, go caitlin! *unamused*

a dog on the mousepad?

2004-12-16T23:23:56Z

god i am so fucking pissed off. look, dumb shits, dont go writing about shit that dindt even fucking happen. and IF it does, then dont blow it SO out of proportion, and then dont exaggerate! mother of god. people are saying that i made up a fucking RUMOR!?! IM NOT THAT FUCKING LOW. i had NO reason to make a fucking rumor against christy. and i had NO reason to lie to nick. i didnt exaggerate, and i didnt add any of my own little twists in on either. fuck if i know if christy's opinions have changed from the time that she ACTUALLY sed it to when i told nick. and at the time, i didnt really care. i dindt want him to get hurt. but all you fucking people who say that i made it up can go FUCK yourselves, cuz i didnt. christy even knows that. im not trying to fucking DO anything to either of them by doing any of this. hell at the time, i may have been a little jealous of my close to best friend going out with my ex, who i still liked. is it SO bad to have the thought cross the ex-girlfriend's mind "he likes her more then he ever liked me...was he thinking about her the whole time? even while we were going out?" so maybe i was a little bit of resentment towards christy, because, having thought that my boyfriend was thinking about another girl the whole time we were going out, that she had maybe even stolen him in a sense. and i know that after reading this, people are gonna try to say "well YOU broke up with HIM" yeah and who's to say that i wasnt beling dumb? or that i really didnt know what i was talking about and it all came out wrong?? fucking ay. I make the wrong decisions like other people do. im no different in that department! all im trying to fucking prove is that i made NOTHING up, and i did NOT do any of this to start a fucking rumor. im not nessicarily sorry...but im not so self-content that i think i was 100% right in saying anything at all. if ANYONE says one more fucking time that i was fucking making a RUMOR, then you can seriously just fucking die.

**love**

she was waiting to fall

2004-12-16T03:58:32Z

amazing...i think im bipolar...or just suffer from increasingly bad mood swings...i was on the phone, i was feeling fine...then hearing a certain voice made me die inside. and thats what i feel like. i am dead inside.

"book you for a fun time"

2004-12-14T20:51:56Z

wow. today is a good day. i woke up feeling like shit, but im feeling better now. andy came over again to chat, good times. he understands what "im going through". ha-ha-ha. today is the 1st day in a long time that i feel extremely content with my findings, and with my plan. talk to me later if you know what im suggesting to, and would like to know more. only 3 more days until the 17th...only three days left.

"hehe i guess she'll be making a pearl over this one, eh?"

2004-12-13T22:20:18Z

well....lets just overlook that last entry of mine...i was a bit upset cuz my hand was bleeding because i hit it against my shoe while in a protest against my brother's apathy towards my boyfriends in comparison with alex and her brother(s)hatred towards her boyfriends. but anyway, that was a long run on sentence. andy brought me cocoa pebbles. *nods in andy's general direction* he was the only one who cared that i wasnt at school today. i'm currently sick. i was sick yesterday too..i really do not wanna go to school ever again. my emotional status right now wouldnt be able to cope with it. *is tired of complaining* im going to go sleep..

AH NOOO!!!

2004-12-12T06:28:18Z

*is upset* oww....my wrist...ony my RIGHT hand hurts...i hit it against my shoe...and now its all bleeding...owwie...alex is over. im angry *angered* at her. shes mean. *looks around* *is suddenly confused* DAMNIT! IM SO CONFUSED I HATE SCHOOL DANCES

fasten the attachment here!

2004-12-04T05:53:11Z

this week was interesting...plethera of nicks for christy...MY BIRTHDAY WAS ON WEDNESDAY!! im old!!!!! i missed prism today. im sad. i need to paint my nails... who knew that i have to miss mistletoe maddnes...DAMNIT! i feel drunk. but i am not... call me if u wanna hang out! odds are im lonely.

sniff

2004-12-01T06:02:13Z

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYA!!!!!!!!!! im 1 year closer to death!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! w00t! set my cake on fiya!

the door doesnt open?

2004-12-01T05:59:21Z

wow...cherice=mad. that makes me sad. so my day sucked up until me and melissa and rebecca went out shopping for megan (her x-mas gift...not just for any old reason) and well...i kinda spent 60$ on ym mom for her b-day. but hell, it was worth it! she's gonna love the stuff i got her...and i got me some incense! w00t. well and we met this hott ass guy...he is refered to as the "random guy from the mall" but his name's vito. so i gav him my # and we talked for awhile. hey! who knows what it is in 2 minutes?!?!?!? thats right! midnight! MY B-day!!!!!!!!! YAY!

god is in the tv...

2004-11-28T01:14:55Z

im pissed off. allllllll weekend we've been saying that we were gonna go see spongebob...but we never do. and now i think people went...and didnt INVITE ME! whats that about? and just to mention, no one ever calls me back. EVER! I HAVE A CELL PHONE! ITS ALWAYS WITH ME! CALL IT SOMETIME!

this is not a love song...

2004-11-26T02:40:27Z

party last night. donuts in the snow. ice down the pants. tiny green shirt. how to put a bra on. No! i wanna do this without taking my shirt off, thank you. rum=water and food coloring?! how do you shimmy...my whole body moves! no, this is how u roll ur hips! damn, brenden fraiser is h0t! LETS HAVE A FASHION SHOW! dude...ur feet are freezing. i would spoon with you...but your ribs hurt...actually, that may make it better. YELLOW AND PURPLE! IM SO SCARED! meat 4 the meat lovers! veggie for the plant lovers! and cheese for the pizza lovers! it all makes sense!!!!!! WAIT! when u get to the end of the street turn right, then right again...but watch out, they have a "night-shift"... damnit! im floorin it, and we're not moving! see that house? it has like 7 staircases that lead to nothing *spooky voice*. lets try the HILL!!!!!!! w00t!!!!!!!! lets pee in the snow! yellow snow!!! you *points to nick* here *points to crotch* now. hahahahhhaahahahahahahaaah! dude! dont run over her dog...OR THE HOUSE!!!!!!!!! we're gonna die! well, we led full lives. GAZELLE CARCASS!!!! hey you buttmunch....why are YOU not HERE?!?!?!?! hey cherice (whispering) wanna...you know...under the blanket?
hahahahaha!!!!!!!

room 214

2004-11-22T02:36:40Z

i bet NO ONE had a better weekend then i did. *sarcastic in all its full fledged 30000% meaning*